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tell me where is balestier?

it sounds far. but it's not. hoho.

It's the start of the new sch year. AND I hate the timetable. ALL of lessons ends at 4.30.

k la k la. only on wednesdays. Tuesday and thursday at 4. AND after that we're gonna have science practical. Both chemistry and biology. anybody wishes to switch identities with me?

A couple of prefects and I brought the newly sec 1s to one of the campsites at Balestier. So I skipped lessons. My ASM was with me though. The sec 1s are so cute!!! REALLY MAN. hahaks. AND guess what they call me?? JIE JIE. LOL. so cute. They refuse to call me Lynette or Atiqah, Atiqah. It's always either 'jie jie' here and 'kak kak' there.

There's this guy, ok, BOY. His name is 'myname'

i have no idea how it's spelt but this is what everyone calls him including the teachers.

He is damn cute and chubby and most importantly he comes from my school. Ok, That was my first impression of him. You know, those angelic kind. But NO. This boy has a serious attitude problem and is freaking spoilt. When we had outdoor cooking, he kept complaining why must they cook. Not as if sec 1s are gonna make their recess and all these crap. And he kept repeating he want burgers. that explains his size. So in the end, i had to cook the macaroni for them and they cooked their hotdogs and sardines.

AND I HAD NO SHARE OF IT. That's the worst part.

After lunch, i did not talked to him anymore. His attitude just suck la. He refuse to participate in most of the activities and when his classmates were being briefed on wearing the harness, he sat aside, saying he know this and blah. I didn't talk to him cos i was afraid I'll end up shouting at his face. And who knows he might cry or something. It may be a small matter, but who knows? for a girl whose emotions is up to her neck. I might just decide to strangle him or stuff him with hamburgers.

But his size kind of reminded me of ME. When I was in primary sch, i was this obese girl that had to go to TAF prog. I was close to 78kg liddat.Having such a body already made me very pissed. Plus all those crude remarks from my classmates and stuffs like that. My pri sch life was somewhat bad. In sec sch, i joined NCC, so.. from a XL camo bottom, it's now currently M. (:

Sometimes I get really sensitive about people calling me fat. Yups. Especially during camp pin. One of the company mates told me i was fat. I was damn hurt. but i shrug it off by saying "So? i like the way i am". BUT THAT WAS SO FAKE. So, after that incident, i ate only vegetables from the catered meals. Don't believe? ask Atiqah or Jeryl, Atiqah gave me her vegetables whereas i gave Jeryl my rice and meat so that i won't be scolded by Sir Hadi. Actually, i had no idea that what that company mate said affected me. Until i went home and reflected for camp pin.

Alrights. Tmrw will be the 2nd day with the Sec 1s. Hope my patience for that myname will stay. hoho.

If pain is beauty, I would have been fucking gorgeous.
Off to homeworking.

-it's so weird that you think i have a crush on you. Just so weird.